so i replied

I couldn't go to bed without replying and I couldn't stay up any longer
I was polite yet short... and it hurt me so much
I wasn't rude, but i kinda cut him off and sounded like I didn't want to talk to him... which was so difficult because I really do :'( but i know it's the right thing to do, and even though I really don't want to, I know I have to keep things this way... it just upsets me so so much......
Gonna go cry myself to sleep now