Fed up to the max again

Fml

Why do I do this to myself 

How do I stop caring 

I'm starting to resent him again 

I just wanna be over him 

I want to move on 

He obviously has so why can't i

I'm so so hurt 

Is this what i deserve?

I never thought he could cause me this much pain 

I don't know what to do with myself 

I miss him constantly

I cry over him every day

I have no motivation for anything 

Nothing makes me happy 

Nothing takes my mind off him 

I'm so tired of everything 

I just wanna switch it all off

Just when I thought I was doing better...

I'm back to crying over him

FUCK

I wish

I'd never let him go

My mind is too loud

I can't sleep 

I just keep tossing and turning 

Thinking and thinking 

Getting upset 

Sobbing 

'Dry your eyes' 'pull yourself together' 

But then I'm back to tossing and turning

So tired 

Tired of crying

Tired of missing you 

Tired of everything 

Where's the off switch please? 

When will this end?

Rain on the roof

Sounds so pretty 

While I'm wrapped up warm in bed 

And I can't help wondering if he's wrapped up in his bed listening to the same rain on his roof 

And I can't help wishing we could be wrapped up in bed together, listening to the rain on the roof together, quietly cuddling, drifting off to sleep together

Everything feels so empty without him 

When will this end?  

Feeling numb

Sick 

Dizzy 

Lied to

And fucking used

He's changed and the sooner I wrap my head around that the better 

I'm not getting him back 

Wearing your t shirt to bed

Because I'm missing you like crazy again 

Wish it still smelt like you

At least then I could close my eyes and feel like you were lying next to me 

When is this going to end? 

I'm so tired of crying over you

Woo

Feeling like utter crap again