gonna try and get back into it tomorrow... wanna wear it for at least 6 hours
Friday 30 December 2011
Thursday 29 December 2011
thought i just cracked a rib when i moved too quick in my corset :/
close one
took it off now cuz i was scared
took it off now cuz i was scared
Tuesday 27 December 2011
WAIST TRAINING 1ST WEEK
it's been going pretty well actually :) worn it for at least 2 and half hours every day since my previous post, even on xmas day (that's commitment) although i did take it off for my xmas dinner :p
i've decided i'm going to do what's called the "roller-coaster method". it means that each time i start a new measurement i'll begin wearing it for 2ish hours/day and slowly build up to between 10-14 hours/day over a month. once i'm totally comfortable with that, i'll move down. i've decided my aim is a quarter to half an inch a month. atm i've been wearing it at 25 and a half inches.
wore this bad boy for over 8 hours today! pretty proud of myself tbh. i'm getting much more used to eating in it too. managed to eat a good sized lunch in it today :) it's a little uncomfortable but it's getting better everyday :)
i'll keep you updated with how it goes
E xxx
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| underbust from corsets.uk laced at 25&a half" |
wore this bad boy for over 8 hours today! pretty proud of myself tbh. i'm getting much more used to eating in it too. managed to eat a good sized lunch in it today :) it's a little uncomfortable but it's getting better everyday :)
i'll keep you updated with how it goes
E xxx
Thursday 22 December 2011
WAIST TRAINING
i really want to start waist training again :)
okay so i did some current measurements:
32
26
35
obviously i can't change the first and last ones, although i really wish i could :p (maybe i'll change the first one some day) but it's the middle one i wanna focus on. if i can change that i'd be so happy. 1) because i think small waists are beautiful 2) because i think it would be fun to achieve something and 3) because a smaller waist would give the appearance of a bigger bust (always a good thing)
so, i need some goals i think...
according to wikipedia a woman's waist-to-hip ratio "very strongly correlates to the perception of attractiveness across all cultures" This 'magic' ratio is 0.7 which means your waist circumference is 70% of your hip circumference. Therefore, with a hip measurement of 35 my 'ideal' waist size would be 24.5, that's very comfortable :) i'm happy with that, i think it's a realistic goal in relation to my current waist size but nothing too drastic. i think ultimately i'd like to be closer to 22 inches really though but we'll see how getting to 24.5 goes first. I think having multiple small goals will be better for me. I need to think up of some method of rewarding myself too because i know what i'm like!
okay so at the moment, with my good ol' underbust (over a tank top) i can lace down to 25.5 easily, 25.25 comfortably, and 25 at a squeeze but it's pretty uncomfortable. i think i wanna keep it at whatever's comfortable. i'm also gonna have to take pride in very small changes since this process is so gradual.
so for now, i'm gonna say my first goal is to be able to be comfortable at 25 by the end of january :) let's see how it goes :) wish me luck!
xxx
okay so i did some current measurements:
32
26
35
obviously i can't change the first and last ones, although i really wish i could :p (maybe i'll change the first one some day) but it's the middle one i wanna focus on. if i can change that i'd be so happy. 1) because i think small waists are beautiful 2) because i think it would be fun to achieve something and 3) because a smaller waist would give the appearance of a bigger bust (always a good thing)
so, i need some goals i think...
according to wikipedia a woman's waist-to-hip ratio "very strongly correlates to the perception of attractiveness across all cultures" This 'magic' ratio is 0.7 which means your waist circumference is 70% of your hip circumference. Therefore, with a hip measurement of 35 my 'ideal' waist size would be 24.5, that's very comfortable :) i'm happy with that, i think it's a realistic goal in relation to my current waist size but nothing too drastic. i think ultimately i'd like to be closer to 22 inches really though but we'll see how getting to 24.5 goes first. I think having multiple small goals will be better for me. I need to think up of some method of rewarding myself too because i know what i'm like!
okay so at the moment, with my good ol' underbust (over a tank top) i can lace down to 25.5 easily, 25.25 comfortably, and 25 at a squeeze but it's pretty uncomfortable. i think i wanna keep it at whatever's comfortable. i'm also gonna have to take pride in very small changes since this process is so gradual.
so for now, i'm gonna say my first goal is to be able to be comfortable at 25 by the end of january :) let's see how it goes :) wish me luck!
xxx
Monday 19 December 2011
fucking hell
he's making me feel so guilty for stuff that i haven't even done
i tried so hard to be kind and reassuring to him this morning and he's just thrown it all back in my face and now i feel sick to my stomach
as if today wasn't going to be upsetting enough i've now got this shit to contend with as well
god i'm so upset right now. i just keep crying.
i wish i could go back to the start. go back to before my life began messing up and start over.
or, more realistically, i wish i could severe all ties with my current friends and the outside world, go back to sleep, sleep until xmas, have christmas day with the family then change my name and move away. go to a different country where no one knows me. where i can forget about the people back home and how much i hurt them and what i bitch i am and start over again. i would love that so much right now....
i tried so hard to be kind and reassuring to him this morning and he's just thrown it all back in my face and now i feel sick to my stomach
as if today wasn't going to be upsetting enough i've now got this shit to contend with as well
god i'm so upset right now. i just keep crying.
i wish i could go back to the start. go back to before my life began messing up and start over.
or, more realistically, i wish i could severe all ties with my current friends and the outside world, go back to sleep, sleep until xmas, have christmas day with the family then change my name and move away. go to a different country where no one knows me. where i can forget about the people back home and how much i hurt them and what i bitch i am and start over again. i would love that so much right now....
Friday 9 December 2011
he just doesn't understand
how much love scares me
i didn't want us to fall in love, it's too dangerous
and now i feel like it's happened, i feel like i've really fallen for him, and now i'm scared. Scared of getting hurt, scared of hurting him, scared of our inevitable ending. Love makes everything so much more fragile and precarious and dangerous and complicated. why can't we just play around, have fun, share secrets, tell stories, hold hands, make each other happy and think about forever, but just not fall in love. I just feel like love tends to ruin things.... and i really don't want this ruined.
i didn't want us to fall in love, it's too dangerous
and now i feel like it's happened, i feel like i've really fallen for him, and now i'm scared. Scared of getting hurt, scared of hurting him, scared of our inevitable ending. Love makes everything so much more fragile and precarious and dangerous and complicated. why can't we just play around, have fun, share secrets, tell stories, hold hands, make each other happy and think about forever, but just not fall in love. I just feel like love tends to ruin things.... and i really don't want this ruined.
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