when you feel so tired but you can't sleep...

stuck in reverse

nothing but a g thang babyyy

- waist training is going slow but well :) down to 25" easily and spent 3 hours today with it 24 and a half :)

- half term is becoming one long laze. I turned down a party last night and another one tonight :P

- i'm becoming obsessed with video games D: went to paul's on sunday. played this game called soul calibur (similar to tekken which my and my brother used to play) and i absolutely loved it.. got really competitive :P and beat TB :D (he insists he let me win but i know he didn't) But it seems to have turned me nerdy.. i've spent today playing tetris, age of empires and tekken and i've just spent almost £9 on soul calibur 3 :P and i've adopted my brothers ps2 :)

I should really be in bedd

- Valentine's day was lovely :) He loved his card and he was so appreciative of the cookies :) He got me the biggest box of chocolates i've ever seen, a lovely card and he watched a film that he refused to watch with me last year because it looked 'gay'.. and it was actually a really good film :) the meal was nice, and he insisted on paying for it which was sweet. He is lovely, he said to me today "Sometimes it amazes me how lucky I am to have you". Which, although absolutely adorable, makes me feel so guilty :(

- REALLY REALLY need a job. I checked my bank account today - i have a grand total of £8 D:

- keep seeing pictures of women with dark hair and wanting it so so bad :(


- still loving my new corset, i think i've actually decreased a little already...at least an inch. Like i can lace down to 25 1/2" comfortably (and 25" uncomfortably :P) so I feel like I've made some improvement :)
I put my red corset on and took a couple of pictures so I can document my shrinkage. I was quite proud of how I look already considering it's only been like a week and a half. Look how small I look from the side :D That was 25" i think, or maybe just a little less. I want to go down at least another inch before i'll be properly happy though. And i think eventually I'd like to get all the way down to 22 :) but it takes so much commitment D: I just can't devote enough of my time to it :/ I can't wear it to college and I feel like sleeping in it is dangerous. I have to take it off to eat (can't be doing with small meals). I'm just gonna wear it as much as possible during half term and easter and stuff and hope that that'll be enough :/ we'll see..

Anyway I must go to bed now otherwise I'll never make it up and out of bed in the morning.
Nightt
E xxx

MY KZ UR BF

-NME was amazinggg :D went last night... Everything Everything were brilliant live, such good voices! Magnetic Man were a bit overly dubby for me but still good. CRYSTAL CASTLES WERE AWESOME. Alex Glass is scary as shit but they were so so good :D And i didn't even get drunk or anything. The whole night (excluding ticket) only cost me £3.50! So smug about that :P

- My new corset is perfect <3 I wear it all the time now rather than my red one :) LOVE IT :D

- River rooms on Thursday was shit... don't think I can be bothered with that anymore

- REALLY need a job. The shops are bringing out spring/summer collections and I can't afford any of it D:

- As usual, very bored with my hair. I keep having the urge to cut it all off and dye it dark brown but Tom won't let me. I'll probably thank him for that one day though.

- Tomorrow is valentine's day <3 :) I've ordered a personalised card from Hallmark which is meant to be being delivered straight to Tom's tomorrow, and i've baked him cookies :) He's taking me for a meal in the evening which should be lovely and then I'm staying at his afterwards :) I do have a little surprise for him but he doesn't have a free house so I might save it for another time :P

I think that is all for now, I know it's not much but I wanted to summarise because I HATE long posts

Night guyzz
I'll let you know tuesdayish about how my Valentine's shenanigans go :)
E xxx

bought another corset...

ahh i'm so impulsive :D

although I love my red one, it's not that strong and the fact that it's long line overbust makes it kind of impractical :/plus i swear it's flattening my boobs! D:
sooo i've ordered the same style corset as the overbust one i first got from Corsets UK but in an underbust cut instead. The material was a lot comfier than whatever this red one is made from, plus the fact that it's underbust and shorter than this one means hopefully it'll be easier/comfier to wear... i'm gonna attempt sleeping in it too :/ we'll see how that goes...
anyways it's very pretty and i'm excited for it :)

Night guyz
E xxx

fucking hate my dad

ventured downstairs for a yogurt and a conversation with my mum only to be reminded why i now spend all night every night in my room
back in my warm bed now, with my laptop and TV on, feeling a lot better :)

My priorities are all wrong

Tonight my choices were wash my dirty hair or watch a TV program about beauty and facial deformities
...let's just say it's a good thing I bought a new bottle of dry shampoo

Talking to TB tomorrow... anixousss, don't even know what to say... so mixed up right now D:

REALLY looking forward to Friday though! :D my velvet shorts better arrive tomorrow!

Also still trying to find a way of scraping £3,500 together for a boob job.... hmphhhhhhh