that he thinks this is so easy for me
it's so so hard
and it hurts so much
he has no idea how miserable i am
i've been putting on a brave face
but when i'm alone all i can do is try my hardest not to cry
but once i start i don't know how to stop
i'm sat here sobbing
uncontrollably
my eyes string
my head is banging
my cheeks are soaked
and all i want to do is crawl back into bed and shut out the world
sleep is meant to be an escape but i dream about him too
i don't know what to do
i feel broken
