Can't believe i fucking drunk texted him...

I'm such a fucking jealous dickhead

I need to lay off

I literally hate her guts

And all because he finds her attractive

It's so ridiculous 

Yeah you're right 

I did break it off

But why?

Because of fucking her 

Kaz

I practically spit her name 

I know it's unfair on her

But how can I not despise her

For she's the reason I had to give him up 

She came between us from the start

And he was weak enough to keep talking to her

And now because of her I've lost the one guy I could have imagined marrying

The one guy I wanted to spend my life with

Grow old with

Because of fucking kaz

I've lost him 

Fuck her

Fuck her

Fuck her 

And no matter how nice I try and dress

How good I feel

How many guys buy me drinks or give me attention 

At the end of the night I still end up alone and upset because the only attention I want is probably being given to her right now 

But yeah

I broke it off

So fuck my feelings 

Go fuck her

With her perfect fucking abs

And boobs 

At least you'll have what you missed out on with me

Ahhhhh

I hate her

But I hate myself more right now

And I don't even hate him a bit