did i say too much, did i say enough, i don't know

fed. up.
really fed up
i was in a bad mood last night, n all day today. n still am. lovely
eurgh

basically it's the same old same old
stupid bloody ex boyfriend
i've seen him flirting and blatantly showing interest in other girls. which in nice. it really gets my down. and then i get even more down cuz i really shouldn't fucking care anymore.... it's been 2 and a half months ffs.
eurgheurgheurgh
i feel like crying
and as if that's not enough there's more.. there's always more
he's become a complete douche in front of his new friends.. which angers me to see because he's not being himself and from where i'm stood it just looks pathetic
PLUS, he always used to have a go at me for "changing" in front of my friends..which i didn't.. yeh maybe i was a bit louder.. but he's like a completely different person... one i really dislike

now, this, all the above, i wouldn't mind if he stuck at it,
if he was always and only interested in other girls
spent all his time with his new friends
and always acted like a douche

yeh i'd be sad to leave him behind but at least i'd be able to
it's the way he still acts with me... not like a douche but like the person i know him, and unfortunately still love him, as
and the way he's all caring.. yeh it's nice but it makes it harder to let him go
and the whole "staying close friends" thing... i really don't like i can handle it
he's invited me to go round his on saturday to spend the day together,
initially i said yes but i really don't know if it's a good idea atm
although i want to go because i really do enjoy spending time with him... the longer we stay close, the longer it's gonna take for me to get over him and i don't want to feel like this anymore

and now i'm crying. great.

what should i do? should i say something to him? or just cut him off??
i really hate this