putting off going to bed

because it means time goes slower before i have to go on holiday
i have to be up in 2 and a half hours...
i just can't bear leaving, knowing it's gonna be 10 days before i see him again :( 10 days doesn't sound like much but it's gonna be so so hard :( i'm probably gonna cry myself to sleep each night :( the longest we've ever been apart for before now was 5 days and that was horrible so this is gonna be twice as bad :/ although, on the other hand, i guess it'll be good practice for uni, i mean at uni it's gonna be like 3 weeks inbetween us seeing each other :/ which at the moment sounds dreadful, and i'm sure it will be at first, but i think we'll get used to it.... we'll have to tbh, and it'll make the time we do get together so much more special and appreciated :) <3
i'm just trying my best to look forward to the 4 days we'll have together when i get back :) <3
anyway, i might actually try to get some sleep now :/
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