is it weird

that the thought of being totally devoted to one person and spending the rest of your life with that one person completely scares and baffles me?
i was just thinking about marriage. i don't understand it. the thought of "tying the knot" with someone like that is just utterly terrifying to me. why would you do that? trap yourself with one person for the rest of your life. it just seems kind of odd, and a little crazy to me. what if it went wrong? divorce is so messy. i really don't understand why people bother. marriage isn't some kind of guarantee. it doesn't stop people from falling out of love, so why bother doing it? i just don't get it....
and personally, with or without marriage the thought of a "life-long" partner is scary to me. i just think life's way to short to spend it with one person.
when i think about the future i worry that i'll never get to do all the things i want.
although there's a large part of me that wants to settle down and have kids, there's so much other stuff i want to do - travel the world, and not just travel it, but live it different countries for a couple of years and make new friends, gain new skills, get new experiences. i worry that i'll never have time for it all.
it seems silly worrying when i'm so young but there's a lot i want to do with my life.