also,

stuffing my face with chocolate to make myself feel better really isn't helping my figure :(

i hate being so insecure

i can never seem to shake it
no matter how hard i try, how good i think i look, how drunk i get, i can never feel truly confident, i'm always just searching for someone to tell me i look nice, and then even when they do i don't believe them
i wish i wasn't like this,
i always think that maybe if i was more confident, i wouldn't be so shy and boring...
or maybe that's just the type of person i am
i'm really down about myself today, can't wait till i have enough money for plastic surgery

I keep having really wacky dreams

they're making me sad and stressed and worried :(
i dreamt about him last night... i didn't like it at all

i'm noming on easter egg to make myself feel better

even though i know that long term it's not gonna make me feel better at all...

i hate it when

i see girls who are flawless :(

lust only grows like anger and revenge

back to college tomorrow
tom's birthday tomorrow <3
meal with tom on wednesday :)
final graphics and textiles on thursday. no more graphics or textiles
day off on friday. will and al's birthday drinks followed by pub crawl :D
zombie or something with tom on saturday night
kate's mexican party on sunday night
day to recover on monday, then back to college.

s'gonna be a good week :)

happy :)

I love it when things are good :)
<3