the more i think about it

the more angry it makes me
and the more im starting to resent him

i can't push him away
i wanna stay friends
but i can't help but feel angry at all this

can i just sleep all weekend please?

Can i go to bed now and wake up Sunday evening?

Ow
I really wish i could :(

whoa

i need to go to bed

my eyes are stinging

i feel so sick,
wish i could just switch everything off so i didn't have to think anymore

can i just start again please?

old songs hold such memories for me

they make me sad about things that happened in the past
sometimes i feel like i didn't make the most of my college years
looking back now i realise how they good they were
i shouldn't listen to them because they make me so nostalgic
a land down under reminds me so much of the times up the hill with jake and tyler and the campfire going - nights up that hill were the best, i miss it, i miss the people
i need to stop this, the nostalgia is getting a bit too much

Feeling like rubbish

Fed up, down, scared, worried, numb, empty, shit
Missing him, wishing he was here
Scared he's not missing me
Scared he doesn't want me like he used to
Scared he wants other girls
Scared we're growing apart
One the verge of tears and feeling that way again
Need to go to bed before it gets any worse
Fuck this shit. I need to stop it and be stronger.
If he doesn't want me then it's for a reason
I need to love myself incase he doesn't. Otherwise i'll start looking for it in all the wrong places and i don't wanna be like that again.
Bed now please.