Why the fuck

Am I still so pathetically in love with him? Why can't I get over him? And let go of the future we'd planned? 

I don't understand 

It's been over a year 

I'm with someone new 

How can I possibly still feel like this? 

It's fucking exhausting 

I want to move on so badly but I don't know how 

And deep down what I really want more than that is to be with him again 

I feel so stupid