feelin' broody :(

trying to do my make-up for uni

but i just keep crying

although i don't think joni mitchell is exactly helping

i just wanna stay in bed and cry myself back to sleep

stomach cramps can fuck off

if you tick off five or more of the following symptoms, it's likely you're depressed:

being restless and agitated 
waking up early, having difficulty sleeping, or sleeping more ✔
feeling tired and lacking energy; doing less and less ✔
using more tobacco, alcohol or other drugs than usual
not eating properly and losing or putting on weight
crying a lot ✔
difficulty remembering things ✔
physical aches and pains with no physical cause
feeling low-spirited for much of the time, every day ✔
being unusually irritable or impatient
getting no pleasure out of life or what you usually enjoy
losing interest in your sex life
finding it hard to concentrate or make decisions ✔
blaming yourself and feeling unnecessarily guilty about things ✔
lacking self-confidence and self-esteem ✔
being preoccupied with negative thoughts
feeling numb, empty and despairing ✔
feeling helpless
distancing yourself from others; not asking for support ✔
taking a bleak, pessimistic view of the future ✔
experiencing a sense of unreality
self-harming (by cutting yourself, for example)
thinking about suicide ✔

brilliant.
time for bed i think

want to run away

so fed up and confused

eurgh
feel like utter shit

really need to think of a new name for this thing so i can start writing on it more often again...

-.-

having those feelings again :(

fucks sake
what am i even doing with my life?