love really isn't worth the pain

i hate it

starting to think more and more that this isn't going to last

neither of us are happy any more and i don't know what we can do to make it go back to how it used to be :/

i love having money :D

i feel so rich! :))
I do owe Ste £200 for Reading but even after that i am still rich!
i'm gonna start saving more often!

the kind of sad thing is that i know i will blow it all over summer..
but meh.... as long as i have fun blowing it :p

ffs...people have found my tumblr

i reckon

if i didn't go out (i'm talking no nights out, no trips, no holidays, no festivals) and didn't buy anything unnecessary (clothes, make-up, jewelry, etc) for 2 years i'd be able to save enough money for a boob job

i mean i've only been properly saving for 4 months (and ive had a few small purchases here and there, a couple of nights out and been on a 4 day trip to London) and i've saved £500 already. quite proud of myself really :) of course that will all be blown in the next couple of months on a Reading ticket, trip to wales, nights out over Easter and maybe a camping holiday...

but back to the boob job, although it would be a very very boring 2 years i kind of think the reward at the end would be worth it
hhmmmmm....
although, then again, i find it so difficult blowing £4000, that i'd worked really hard and given everything up for, all at once :/