Life's not all that bad..

Looking at the positives:
- Booked a holiday to Turkey next summer with my best friends yesterday :) very excited for that, and very happy that i have such good friends :)
- Got a job starting soon :) gonna be a good experience for me plus it'll gimme a little extra to spend each week (gonna be saving most of it to pay for the holiday :p) i'm excited to start but nervous about it at the same time :/
- 18 this time next week :D looking forward to my party and presents :P this week'll be nice, (apart from the dreaded meal with the grandparents tomorrow, i'll let you know how that goes) getting my ears pierced on Monday, then T (on/of boyrfriend/not boyfriend) is taking me out for a meal one of the days <3 and giving me my presie :) i'm excited to see what he's got me :) and i'll have the family coming round sometime in the week for presies and cake :D then we have all the Halloween stuffs :D college party on wednesday, hopefully be pumpkin carving on Thursday or Friday (love doing that! :D), meal out with close family on Friday then partay on Saturday :D :D

Life's not that bad at all atm..
Still having worries about T and everything... :/ but i'm hoping that'll sort it's self out in time

E xxx

Meh

Feeling proper shite today.
Wishing i could change me. How i look and what i'm like.
I'll never be good enough. I'll never be or have what he wants. I think about it everyday.
And I don't know if he's what i want anymore.
I wish i could move away.
I'm fed up of the people here.
I want to start again. I want a new life.
I'm so fed up again.
Fml.